Be gentle and not cruel. Embrace humility more than arrogance. Thank others more than you accept thanks. Feel compassion more than apathy. See what others ignore. Hold others close more than you push them aside. Learn more than you teach. Be present more than absent. Give more than you take. -Joanne Cacciatore

Friday, October 29, 2010


Life has thrown us some serious curve balls and boy oh boy oh boy....I want to post positive post because isnt that the standard! Happy go lucky!!!! That is not exactly how life has been playing out! Cameron has decided to change jobs because he was offered part ownership in a Pawn/Title Loan company. Our intentions are to relocate and open a store in (undisclosed location) dont know who reads this and it was a better situation for our family! With that...Cameron is now being sued by his previous employer for leaving and working in the "Same field" we knew this could happen but the fact that it did was a little disturbing!

We then found out the place we were renting for the last 14 months...well, the owners have not been paying on the mortgage. They have told us that they were just doing a "restructure" loan but as the papers posted on the garage door a little different plan then what the bank believes! So we had to up and move. Great, FUn, OH WAIT NO! Camerons Employer asked that we not sign more then a 6 month lease and right now that just does not seem easy!

So then.... a week ago I decided to come visit my mom and talk to her about moving maybe into her basement apartment. It is bigger then 90% of the homes here...well, when I arrived at her home I could not see very well, my eyes were just blury as all get out. I mentioned it being weird and then went to the front room to relax. Well, then my left hand goes numb tingly feeling, then my mouth on the left side, then my mom rubs my neck and my hearing goes. After trying to reach my Dr. 4 times I finally call Big Bro and he tells me to go to the ER immediately. Well, with that, and three days later, I had what they think was a T.I.A. also known as a small stroke. Then with all the billion test it showed I have a hole in my heart, well with those symptoms and a hole we would pursue the next step which is closing it. Oh wait that wont work because I am pregnant! So, for now, we are on bed rest, moving, meet with a Cardiologist, meet with a Neurologist and take some baby aspirin blood thinners.

But to add to all this hot mess of life going on my beautiful older sister lost her baby after 9 weeks of pregnancy. To watch her go through this is heart wrenching. At first it was so hard for me to be there for her because I know the pain and I couldn't fix it for her and I never EVER want anyone to feel that pain. The bond of sisterhood is such a beautiful thing when life attacks you in ways like this. I watch her strength, sadness, questions, and pain all in a hour conversation. I am so sorry for her and sorry for the pain she feels, after all my complaining of life I see her going through this and I really have no reasons to complain! She has it tough! A pain I think never goes away! She lost a child, you can never replace that!

So through all of this she has been over willing to help me, pack, clean, whatever needed and I truly appreciate it. Stephanie has spent the past week, yelling at me to sit down, moving, cleaning, unpacking, shopping, also while her poor teething son has had NO good naps. We will all get over these hills, mountains, and trials soon...and I promise for happy post from now on.


  1. Congrats on being pregnant! How far along are you? Sorry that things are so crazy right now. I hope they settle down soon for you!

  2. you can't post "happy" when life throws so much as you so quickly.

    I prefer "honesty" over false happy any day. We're thinking of you - missed your family at church... primary just won't be as fun I'm afraid!

    Here's to hoping things can settle down a little, in all aspects... let people help... it's therapeutic, really...

  3. Hey there's more to come so just sit back and relax!